The Start Of Something New :Day 1

The start of something new. I thought it to be a fitting title for a woman like myself whose life had changed by the snapping of God's fingers.

From being engaged to who I thought was to be my husband of God's choosing, to going back to singleness a few months before my wedding. From the covid-19 pandemic, the postponing of a new career and licensure and finally getting away from desk reception, to working two part time jobs that give me an abundance of opportunity to learn with loving people I believe God has given me as a blessing. To my best friend getting pregnant, and my sister getting cancer. 

Many wonder what the story is, and honestly? I have no idea what my story is. My story is God's story, as He is the author. I don't know where my story is headed or why things turned out the way they did or are.

There's always a lesson to be learned, but that doesn't mean it's not hard. You love and want to be loved. You pray and that prayer isn't always answered the way you want it to.

One thing I do know is that I can make as many plans as I want, learn as much as I want, go as many places as I want to go, be with who I want, but all of that can change in an instant. It takes great prudence and flexibility of letting go of that because I'm not the author of my own story.

I've read many quotes saying to let go of what was and let God work. To let go of the past and be present. Look forward to the future because a loving God who cares so much about you is writing your story! It's going to have a happy ending!

We don't live long. 80? 90? 100 if we're super lucky? What do we do in a day that we or God would be proud of and not regret if we were to die the next?

It's hard to see a happy future when so many bad things are happening at once. You want to ask Him why. 

But all we can do is trust. Trust God and look forward to the start of something new. It's ok to mess up, because your story continues. Keep going forward. 

That's what I'm looking to do.